First, you are not a bad mom. Yes, it was none of my business. I never reply to blog posts, but this one really touched me. Invitations to outings (to the first invitation to get together I said, but he’s just a newborn and she said- you’re an adult, come and talk with us and it will do you good. I went though so much….it scares me. If they are fed, and dry, sometimes they’ll just cry. I loved this. I loved all of you suggestions. To say I didnt love her was an understatement. x. Thanks for sharing your story. And its a baby girl. I couldn’t believe it truly only was “just a phase” and it would “get better”. I feel like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel… I know it will get better but it feels so hopeless now. The transition to the second babe was a breeze compared to the first. Still though, I fall into the love-a-newborn, baffled-by-toddlers set! I guess if you are nursing it kind of ends up that way. I almost wished I didn’t have the baby. Finally he started sleeping thru her wakings and I managed it all, but I was fully healed and she was sleeping for longer stretches. They say things to me like, “You are the worst mom in the world.” I have tried positive reinforcement, negative reinforcement, all kinds of reinforcement, and nothing works. Relax and enjoy those kids. It was totally unexpected: instant love – the rush of love – total, absolute adoration. http://www.yoursouthernpeach.com/2010/08/words-of-encouragement-to-new-mom.html?m=1, http://healthincheck.blogspot.com/2016/03/7-critical-mistakes-you-need-to-avoid.html, Disclosure, Privacy, & Advertising Policy. • Purchase Order Financing We strive to provide you with a high quality community experience. But before that, to be honest, all I can remember is the constant influx of diapers, saying words I had never before uttered to near-strangers (reflux? I remember struggling with sleep deprivation, crying through nursing (bleeding nipples), mastitis, retained placenta and just general “overwhelmedness.” My life is always stressed.. Anxiety filled, and I get scared a lot. Funny. Thank you. All I remembered about my first was that I didn’t really like having a newborn. Love this post, wish I could send it back in time to myself right after my first was born. And, emphatically seconding the SLEEP suggestion! I moved in with my mom after my daughter was born. Not because it was so horrible (the sleep deprivation always is, of course), but because I had this 3.5 year old yammering away all the time, and the baby was always strapped on my chest in various slings and things; I just didn’t notice my little appendage. I’ve had friends really struggle through the first year so I know it’s not uncommon at all. Or, that something was very wrong with me. I am crying. Although dealing with infertility (4 years of treatments), a miscarriage, a high-risk pregnancy that ended with an emergency c-section, and 2-months preemie twins was one of the most challenging things in my life, I was so thankful for it those first few months–because it kept me focused on knowing the miracle that my children were and appreciating what I had. Anyway, guess I just wanted to say that – with exception of the hormonal/body changes – this isn’t only a newborn phenomenon. The dads are definitely in the same boat. With all her might. because you said she couldn't date a guy four years her senior. I felt guilty because I felt I shouldn't have had a baby if I was going to be this bad at it. Still 17 months pp and I'm not as depressed as I was, but I feel different. I received very good, honest advice from other women before I had my first baby and it was exactly what you are saying here: it might not happen right away ( love that is). I am now expecting baby #3 and I will get the help if I need it, without hesitating. I’m not trying to brag about it or say that anyone who didn’t feel as I did was wrong, because that is certainly not true, but I feel alone in this and don’t often say it out loud. It truly does re-define motherhood once you’ve experienced those first few trying months, doesn’t it? (and I think by that time I was also working full time). I’m a first time dad of a 3 day old, and things like this are very reassuring right now. I had so many issues to deal with when both of mine were newborns that I have to say I didn’t enjoy either one of their infantness now they are 4 1/2 and almost 3 and I wouldn’t trade them for anything! So as far as reality of having a newborn, this was not average circumstances. * Life is full of different seasons – babies grow & one day you won’t be changing nappies. It’s a road I probably will never travel again. Our first son thankfully slept fairly well at night from early on, but day times–another story. Also, our toddler wakes up more frequently at night than the baby… also more needy and harder to get back to sleep! Just get through this hour. I was exhausted and needed help with everything. But u need it.. TRUST ME! It comforted me. And it’s okay if that takes time. It didn’t help that he was a CRYER. Really it’s just my own journey toward doing a better job of it. I hope I can enjoy every moment of my little guys early days because I know they go so fast and you can’t get them back. It seems that PPD is much more common than I thought and I feel a prime candidate for it. I mean those little bundles should come with an instruction manual, but instead I learned by “trial by fire”. After I eliminated multiple food proteins out of my diet, my nursling stopped screaming, and started smiling for the first time. Nipples? You are still a good mom! Now she is here, sweet and beautiful and I love her, but cant help but feel resentful toward her occasionally. best regard CEO/MD FRODO BAGGINS, I know this is an old post but im a new mum to an 8 week old baby boy i didnt find out i was pregnant till i was 6 months and i never stopped to thing about how id lose so much reading this has made me feel a little bit better in myself as im always worried im not good enough for him and id just like to say thank you all that ypuve wrote i feel the same and ar the minute im doing bonding sessions and have someone to talk too. but can’t handle more than pg movies. But with my son, I somewhat liked having a newborn (I didn’t love it. Though my experiences with my 4 babies was really positive, it is a great reminder that it’s not true for everyone & to be supportive of everyone & each situation. Then it was about a year of PPD and PTSD, recovering from those first horrible months (and the subsequent months of near-starvation until we sorted out her food issues). It just is hard. It’s really hard to “enjoy it now.” At least I thought so. Whoever you are, we understand and you are not alone. • Accounts Receivable Loans When we got pregnant the second time, we convinced ourselves it would not be like the first – it couldn’t happen again. for me. I had some pretty bad baby blues for the first week. Shame? I think all us moms need to get together and design an actual roller coaster that makes people understand what all of this is like! now, on the other hand, i am not wild about pregnancy and i don’t get the giddy feeling that many speak of even with the kicks… they kinda hurt. It is clear to me that babies need to be loved to feel secure and the level of early attachment plays a massive role in their future emotional well-being. All the other moms seemed to be enjoying their babies and I had days I contemplated sending him back to the hospital. You’ve never met or seen the baby! Do what you need to do in that hour and you have done a lot. Your body just did something it was made to do, and yet what it did is nothing less than a miracle. I couldn’t believe what I was thinking. And our babies and children will make the most of what they have. I am feeling lost, but just hearing that I’m a superhero, well, that has made a small difference in my little world. My third and youngest baby is only 5 months old. She’s a hard, colicky infant. But this was my decision and I have to stick by it. No, definitely not. It was a little shocking to hear that but I was prepared not to feel overwhelming love right away. You have so much to cope with right now, no wonder you are overwhelmed. My doctors in the end told me I was better to formula feed then to continue to punish myself the way I was. Did I like the newborn stage? I feel like a horrible mom and so guilty for feeling … I expect my little girl in a few days to come. but who better to help you than your own mum. No one ever talked to me about the “negatives” so I had unrealistic expectations after my first daughter was born. Baby girl will be coming in three weeks. I was there, and didn’t realize how bad it was until I had my second child. You are good enough for your baby. To the point where I was actually crying reading them. But you should talk to your husband and express your feelings. O God!!! I think because I didn’t have the fairy tale pregnancy I gave up my fairy tale view of what motherhood would be. I’ve had friends whose mothers aw oke with the babies a night brought the babies to mom to eat then did all of the changing and rocking and loving while mom slept. Because his existence DID bring me joy, it took me most of a year to realize I had PPD. You are doing an excellent job momma. By the time I had my children, so much “pregnancy is beautiful” talk had been given to me that I felt like a total failure as a person, a mother and a woman. So many people go through it, but are ashamed to talk about it. Looking back, I wished I had gotten help early. My son was premature and spent his first 6 weeks of life in the hospital. I did the changing and feeding so hubby could sleep because he works. It’s so important that new moms get lots of positive encouragement, even if it’s a simple “you’re doing a great job with that baby!”, You can read my story here: http://www.yoursouthernpeach.com/2010/08/words-of-encouragement-to-new-mom.html?m=1. Thank you Veerle, its so generous of you to share your process. And crazy crazy in the head. You are making it through each day and that is a big accomplishment in itself. Really. It wasn’t until she was mobile that I have distinct memories of *her*. Oi vye. I feel like a failure. Well-said Tsh, this is exactly what new mothers need to hear – just to be gentle on themselves and perhaps to lower expectations a little. so true. Or just to keep me a little company. I keep telling myself once the baby is here I will just fall in love with it. Then you hear from some moms that it is just so amazing and wonderful. <3. And I felt horribly guilty about that. I will keep you in my prayers. He is working outside the home, yes, but that isn't a 24/7 job. I have had depression for years and knew that I was going to have a hard time. Stuff didn’t hit the fan until I was pregnant with number two, more than two years later. Even more overwhelming is the fact that I have not bonded to them at all. You can breastfeed, you can get help with breastfeeding, you can go with formula (there is nothing wrong with that), just dont sacrifice yourself in the process because your baby needs a momma and formula vs breast is not a fight you need to loose yourself over. I love the honesty in this post. I haven’t had children yet, but the topic caught my eye because PPD is something that concerns me because I’ve had problems with depression before (due to complicated stress + not sleeping… sound familiar?). When I saw red I swear ‘Grandma’ looked like evil embodied. I’m not a new mom but number two actually seems to be much harder for me than first baby was. i get really sick in a few different ways pregnant, and i am always more than happy for it to be over. I distinctly remember the first time I felt a flutter of love towards her—it wasn’t until she was six months old. I completely resented the fact that my life and my body were no longer my own. I’m commenting regarding an email I’ve sent you but haven’t heard back about. I like your handle! It’s like being in the trenches of newborn hood together and coming out with a special bond. And I was sure that the only reason I loved my 1st in teh end was because she was so fantastic, so bright and kind and generous and forgiving…how could i like another kid. I love my I was all for breastfeeding and staying off a lot of meds because they are not safe to take as they get transferred to the baby. Yes, like so many have said, “Thanks for being honest.” I remember going to a new mom’s group and we went around the circle and everyone went on and on about how wonderful their baby was. My experience with my second was just like this. Instead, when our second daughter came I was sad. We prayed and cried and went to doctors to see what was wrong with us. Ten years ago when I had my first I had the most incredible pregnancy and truly enjoyed the entire spectrum babyhood from newborn to toddler, through potty training and more. New mums, seek out support… even if it is online. And thanks for the refreshing comment about getting up before your kids: I have just started doing this and I LOVE it and was wondering why I didn’t do it sooner, but yes, you’re right, sleep was more important! I wish I’d had other friends with babies or young children who had been there, done that. Please email me when you can: melinda [at] babble [dot] com. Check to make sure she was breathing every 30 seconds, that is a form of ppd as well. Like postpartum depression, if left untreated, postpartum anxiety can affect a mother’s ability to bond with her baby. Thank you so much for writing this. BUT my mind still hasn’t processed any of it. Tsh thank you for saying what alot of us were thinking but were too ashamed to say. ask for help. I remember looking at her in amazement, because she was just the kind of mother I knew I wanted to be. I dont really have help to take care of her because everybody (hubby, mom, mom-in-law) seems to be afraid of being alone with her.. like I’m the only one who can handle her when she’s awake. • Shake off all those words on the internet from moms who wake up before the kids. Now I have two girls and my second was totally different. . Lol. Thankfully my second was a completely different experience. I waited for it to pass, which took about 6 months. Everyone is different, but we are all working towards the same basic needs and I wish I had read your post “pre” Post Partum Depression. I’m hoping that since I know what to look out for afterwards I can be prepared to get help early if I need it. My husband gets up early for work so I do all the diaper changes and feeding at night and during the day while he's at work. I just feel that you described me! Lol. Our eyes met—really locked—for the first time that day. It was the hardest and darker moment in my entire life. Thanks so much for your honesty, Tsh. And at times I worry I won’t connect to baby two. It gets better. Then, of course, I did the most awkward thing humanly possible and marched over and told (somewhat aggressively) that mom that I thought she was doing a GREAT job. Because the hardest thing is the loneliness… I watched the clock, minute by minute. skype id: frodo.baggins42, thank awaiting your responds Before I had children of my own, a friend told me that she looked at her first tiny newborn and burst into tears because she was sure she had ruined her life. Looking at him filled me with joy. There was 21 women pregnant at church (out of roughly 60 or so) and many were just past this stage themselves. I have just been on a very long phone call with a girlfriend I have not seen in over a year and she told me how she suffered from ppd. Create an account or log in to participate. Are you KIDDING? The other thing that my friends and I realized after the hard first few months is that nothing you do is going to ruin them for life. We work hard to share our most timely and active conversations with you. I definitely had some issues and absolutely did not enjoy those first months like all the books claim you should. (Which wasn’t even really the most awkward part.) I feel like that’s a horrible horrible thing to admit! I also had a miscarriage following our first, and now have an 8-week-old along with our 2.5-year-old. Now my wide and I are starting to learn and gain confidence as we go, let’s just hope we don’t have too many low moments. I’m learning to go easy on myself and let others help. During my pregnancy we were told he may have fluid on his brain and would most likely be born brain damaged. Feeling this way doesn't mean that you're a "bad" mother or that you don't love your baby. I’ve had the opposite experience. I just want to also encourage new mothers that having more children does make these hard seasons ironically easier sometimes. I feel bad sometimes to think like that, to feel like that. With the PPD part highlighted. I now have a two and a half year old and I’m getting ready to deliver my second (third if you count my miscarriage) in a few weeks. But I can only imagine how difficult it would be to have a newborn demanding attention when your own body is still trying to recover and your hormones still haven’t normalized, and you’re not getting any sleep. So no, I did not enjoy newborn-hood. If I weren’t fueled by raw insane emotions, I’m not sure I would have had the guts to say anything, but I know I would have wanted someone to if the shoe had been on the other foot. I just couldn’t. Help in general. I know I’m struggling and that I’m also going to be prone to post-partum depression as a result. Can’t Wife A Girl Who’s A Bad Mother. 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